Section 1.1: My Journey with Control

I can speak from experience. I used to be excessively controlling, always having not just a Plan B, but also Plans C and D for every situation. Eventually, I came to understand that letting go of control was essential for reducing my anxiety.

For as long as I can remember, this controlling nature went hand-in-hand with my tendency to worry. I would fret over potential mishaps, running countless scenarios in my mind and devising responses for each one.

For many years, I failed to recognize that unexpected events could completely derail my meticulously constructed plans.

For instance, I might plan a meal that requires tomatoes, so I’d ensure to purchase them. I would determine the nearest store, plan my route, and even map out the quickest way to get to the tomatoes once inside. Yet, an unforeseen event—like a friend inviting me out for dinner—could render all that planning irrelevant and waste my time.

Section 1.2: The Awakening

I cannot recall a single moment that sparked my realization, but gradually, I understood that I could not foresee the future or account for every possibility. My attempts at control only served to heighten my anxiety and lead to disappointment.

Changing such ingrained habits is a challenging process. There are still moments when I revert to my old ways. I must remain vigilant, continually reminding myself that no matter how carefully I plan, there’s always a chance my plans may be upended by unforeseen circumstances. The key to achieving inner peace is to embrace uncertainty and adapt when necessary.